this year I didn’t went to firework with crowded places
I stay at home, cook hotpot and have some fresh fruits with loved one
I didn’t do too much reflection as I usually do in past few years
i’m kinda letting myself cool down a little bit
just feel the flow inside myself
try to hear the inner voice that pops out when you are alone
often times, I used lots of logic brain analyzing emotional things
this year I kinda want to develop my instinct
maybe I should not use the word “develop”, but that’s more direct lol
maybe cultivate is good, idk.
in 2025, i did so much things personally, I found out this world is so loud and each of us are so quite
that we let other people shouting at us, and we don’t fight back
letting yourself being sad, being wronged, being misunderstanding
but that’s actually a reflection of yourself thinking of others
One thing I’m assuming: others are also reflecting their reality to others
so if an environment makes you feel bad, it’s true.
if the people make you feel good, it’s also true.
If you try to convince yourself about anything by logic,
that’s probably wrong.
you can feel it, what’s right and what’s wrong.
if you need the explanation, then you are hiding something from yourself
not other, but yourself.
well, I just had some reflection now.
new year resolution still make sense to me
but maybe not a year, quarterly, monthly making more sense for this fast-changing world.
the first priority is to feel more but not think more
I think a lot in my early 30s, some of them works, but some of them make me feel more anxious, which isn’t the goal of mine.
we set goals for better life, but we often forget to live now and enjoy the moment.
I want to feel more of the voice from myself and body.
I did listen to my body about marathon training this year
and I think it’s a great choice, I’ll do more for myself.
this is the pangolin trail from night safari @ singapore
I stay up till almost 12am in a zoo, I must be crazy lol.
ok time to go to bed.
I need to make up my sleep back from the SG trip
but that’s really enjoyable trip.
tired but super super fun.
Max